different about EVERYTHING except last name. WHAT A PAIN IN THE BONES.

i don't really understand why my sister gets so wet over me.. she's obsessed. reading my blog WON'T magically turn your fat ass into me. when we were younger, she'd always dress and act like me (i have a picture or two to prove it)- i just assumed it was a phase.. the idiot doesn't understand that there are people who are ACTUALLY SUCCESSFUL with jobs that she could try to mock and it'd actually make sense. she doesn't even look like my brother or i- in family pictures, my brother and i are the brown ones- my sister and mom are white. the reason for that is because my brother and i have the SAME fathers.. unlike my sister (who ALSO has a mexican father but i think he's got a lighter complexion than the father of my brother and i because our father was from mexico..). my brother used to joke that my sister wasn't related to us when my grandma would pull out the family pictures. she doesn't only look different than my brother and i, she doesn't act like either of us either. we're more interested in sports, technology, and we ACTUALLY made sure we GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL. i could have dropped out when i was 16 and put in a wheelchair for the rest of my time in school with a TBI but *GASP* I STUCK IT OUT! i knew that if i dropped out- there'd be NO way i'd be able to get a job. i have a difficult enough time getting employed now with my TBI. people can say it's illegal to discriminate against the handicapped but you try proving that was the reason. it's not as damn easy as a lot of people think.
i feel like a fucking old lady.. my bones in my arms are aching. my left arm hurts more than the right for some reason. it may be because the left side of my brain was injured in the car accident i was in (so my right side of my body is WEAKER than the left) and sometimes when i walk, i brace myself with my left arm when and if i fall. i don't remember falling lately though. i was hoping to get arp therapy again, since i don't remember having pain in my bones when i was getting arp but the lady who handles my finances just called me to tell me that she doesn't wanna do the peer spanish tutor program until the spring (and my tutor actually called me today and i told him, he said that was ok but i'm not sure if he was still waiting to get paid for the classes i had already?). so i'm sure she'd say that it's not in my budget to have arp therapy now, especially since i plan on taking a trip to boston and salem in the fall. insurance doesn't pay for arp either, it's gotta be paid outta pocket. well.. my shitty ass insurance doesn't pay for it anyway.